Separation

Being separated during this period in my life is R-O-U-G-H. I miss seeing Max on a time scale that isn’t measured by minutes or hours and ends with “See you later, have fun with Daddy! Remember I love you”… Ukghhh – just thinking about having to say that again makes my stomach turn. I can’t imagine what it’s like for Chris, being Daddy & Mommy. Having to do all the structure of dropping Max off and picking him up from daycare, making sure he’s clothed and fed while learning how to do the details of building a relationship with the daycare teacher, playing rag ball during bath time and snuggling in bed while unwinding to Max’s somewhat undecipherable ramblings about his day... it’s got to be Rough.

Keep in mind Chris has been through this three other times in the last 5-6 years. There was his Aunt Lizzie, Grandma, and then Grand Will. All of whom died. I am going to turn his cancer related karma around though. I will survive this. But what I need is Chris to survive this so I am turning to my Austinite friends… Please help! What Chris needs is some home-cooked meals. If any of you can cook, please drop off some food to Chris and Max. Chris usually gets home around 6pm-ish during the weekday or just give him a buzz to coordinate a time on the weekend. Also, those of you who live or work up North, if you could pick up Max from daycare which is located off Dessau Rd/Howard (close to Howard/IH 35) it would really help Chris out. Those are the only two things Chris has relayed to me as things he needs help with, though if you can think of anything else, take the initiative! I’m sure his feelings will not be hurt. Help is always welcomed and very much appreciated.

Things I am learning through this experience are anyone with a positive attitude and a strong support system can make it through cancer, even if that cancer is coupled with a separation. Like I said, this period is Rough. There are nights I cry myself to sleep, days I wish I were in someone else’s shoes and day dreams where I am on an island somewhere living a completely organic lifestyle (even when it comes to shoes!) while giving Western Medicine the finger. R-O-U-G-H, but Chris, Max and I will make it through to see greener pastures.